Here i Am

Two months

2005-12-10T14:16:00.000+08:00

its been two months since i blog. i very bored. now having holidays till next year. hard to find work. slacking around with my bike. thinking of her every minute, every second. even when i am on my bike. i mind will somehow think of her. what am i going to do. i can't live without her. lots of things had happened. Mr Tan who is my secondary school track & field coach got married this month haha. wish her best of luck. Will nth to write already. i just need to grab hold of the chances i have now. come melvyn, u can do it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Mummy !!!!

2005-10-15T14:58:00.000+08:00

haha, two weeks never blog already. today is a big day . it is my mum's birthday . want to wish her a happy birthday. Mummy i love u. she is a great and the best mum. eventhough he always nag at me, but the reason is she care for me. Mum sorry if i keep rising my voice everytime. during this two weeks , happy,sad,angryand boring stuff also have. but now everything became happy. but i just wish that i can bring the girl i like most is to have a dinner with my family. it is becaus my mum is going to be happy about it lor. but too bad just have to let fate do the job. i am so hopeless, found a girl that i like and a girl that my mum like ,and i just let it go like this . So now i am going to take it back, for me and also for my mum. But it is hard , very hard. nvm. once again happy birthday mum. later going to have dinner with my family..haha cya.

The moment i spend with u , is the moment i treasures.

2005-10-01T11:14:00.000+08:00

ok, i stay at home at whole day on thursday. Y?? it is because no one ask me out. as for friday, i though that i am going to stay at home again, but luckly one of my friend called me out for dinner and another friend sk me to go riding with him at 5. went riding with him. managed to ride his X1 bike. but it is not a bad bike, but safety wise , i think it is a bit dangerous, because the bike is light. when to have dinner with my friend at town. reached home at 12 midnight. today , my friend ask me out for riding again haha. ok see u around.

Chalet !!!!

2005-09-28T21:38:00.000+08:00

ok just came back from my class chalet. the chalet is good.happy to see all my classmates. but my class is not united. my class is divided into two groups. everyone we doing their own stuff. but on the second day, onli my group stay at the chalet.we even watch Manchester United Vs Benfica. feeling very happy this morning as Manchester United won benfica 2-1 at home. the chalet is three days two night.it is at pasir ris costa sand. thiru, carney and me were sitting outside the chalet drinking and talking. we drank for two nights. But we never drunk. wasted !!! i am planning to get myself drunk, but i am too strong. haha. But i do enjoy myself. i am very tired now. i am at Plaze Singapure doing my report for the Sri Lanka trip. Shit man. Hate to write report. sad sad .talk to u next time. bye

Sri lanka trip programm

2005-09-25T17:41:00.000+08:00

came back on the 20-sep from sri lanka . went there to help the tsunami victim. the feeling is great after helping them. i am looking forward to more trips like this. i miss many people esp my family and my x stead. but as the day that i am going back to singapore comes , i don't feel like going home.

this is the program that my team , the republicanoz had done in the 2 weeks trip in sri lanka. there were 4 teams in total who went for this trip.

8-Sep
1000 Visit Supermarket ( the supermarket call "foodCity")
1145 Meeting with Sisters( they give us the names of the camps with needed help)
1500 Visit camps ( tsunami victims camp)
2000 Teach Halizah's team lino cutting ( another Republic polytechnic)

9-Sep
830 Go camp to teach lino cutting (printing of cards)
1145 Lunch outside ( we went to a halah shop to eat)
1515 Learn funiture assemblying ( we had to make tables , chairs for some camp)
1900 Dinner ( we cooked our own dinner)
2000 Teach Halizah's team lino cutting
2200 Reflection with karen's team (share our expericence with the other teams)

10-Sep
830 Go camp to teach lino cutting
1200 Lunch ( we cooked ourselves)
1400 Visit kindergarden ( one of the place we need to paint)
1930 Dinner (cooked ourselves)

11-Sep
830 Go camp teach candle making ( teach them our to make candle)
1200 Lunch ( cooked ourselves)
1230 Leave for serendit hotel (meeting with GM)
1900 Dinner (cooked ourselves
2030 Combined meeting at Halizah's place to discuss about candle exhibition

12-Sep
830 Go camp teach candle making
1200 Lunch ( cooked ourselves)
1330 Paint kindergarden ( near nagipora . paint first coat , white colour)

13-Sep
830 Go camp teach candle making
1200 Lunch ( cooked ourselves)
1500 Paint kindergarden ( second coat. paint rose colour)
2100 Dinner ( cooked ourselves)

14-Sep
830 Paint kindergarden + bookshelves assemblying(we need to paint bookshelves)
2200 Dinner ( cooked ourselves)

15-Sep
9am Enjoy sea breeze at fortress ( the sea is wonderful)
1000 Painting at nagipora camp + furniture assemblying(painting the things we assemblying
1900 Dinner ( cooked ourselves)

16-Sep
830 Painting at nagipora camp (paint table chair and bookshelves)
1200 Lunch (cooked ourselves)
1300 3 went Milk distribution and the rest went to serendit hotel
1700 Dinner ( cooked ourselves)

17-Sep
930 Play games at nagipora camp ( played vollyball and soccer)
1200 Lunch at chief's house
1500 Meeting with sisters
1700 Exhibition at lighthouse hotel ( sell candles for tsunami victims)

18-Sep
830 Guys paint house at koggala
Girls area cleaning
1730 Exhibition at Serendib hotel ( sell candles for tsunami victims)

19-Sep
930 Leave for colombo (4 hours ride)
1130 Stopover at Serendib to pee
1330 Lunch at Majestic City ( shopping also)
1500 Shop at odel ( expensive)
1730 Shop at house of fashion ( cheap)
1900 shop at Lakmedura (stupid place)
2000 Dinner at pizza hut ( power man no need to pay , FREE)

20-Sep
730 Home Sweet Home

Slipknot Concert

2005-08-18T18:40:00.000+08:00

wow , on the 16 of agust , i went to Fort canning hill to watch slipknot concert with wei xiang and wan. the concert is damn nice. it is one of the best adn the happiest night i ever had. the crowd is good and fierce.the Mosh-pit , bodysurf were everywhere. everyone were pushing each other.people were as close as the hug each other. the 9 of them were here in singapore. they sang purity ,vermillion ,wait and bleed and even spit it out . the concert is really cool . those who miss the concert . don't worry , i had asked them , they say they will be back to singapore.haha. y i can ask them ??? it is because i took picture with them. i told with joey jordison ,corey ,sid ,chris and even shawn the clown. i had they signiture. but during the concert, ppl were singing and cheering for slipknot. i am in the crowd for the whole concert. i can hardly breath. i am about to faint at that point of time. i from the $60 free standing , climb to $100 free standing and end up at $150 which is the VIP Free standing .my neck really painful now. harly turn my head.and i think i am sick . nvm, who cares. hahaha.i am so happy . wow , if they were to come again , i will for sure go ....hahahah. SLIPKNOT ROCKS .......

there are some pics i told during national day. i went there with ,iqa ,faez,azri and aslam . it is a wondergul night with so many ppl at city hall. there is a picture of me with the fire works . it is real ok. and friends and i were just under the fireworks. hahahaha.i am lucky this month.lol
ok everyone do enjoy urself in everything u do. do what ever u can before it is too late. ok bye.... no songs , i am lazy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE

2005-08-09T12:43:00.000+08:00

TODAY is singapore , my nation , my country ,my homeland Birthday . she is 40 years old this year. after 40 years of age, she is looking more beatiful, attracted lots of people. a wonderful and peaceful place to live in. i am happy to be a singaporean. people who are planning to migrate , i want to ask u this question," is there any country that is safer than singapore ?"

ok , i am also happy this month. going for my bike test. GOOD NEWS : i won Slipknot Ticket. i am watching slipknot live at for canning hill. lol. so happy . today , i am going to sing a birthdat song to my homeland singapore.

Happy birhtday to u - melvyn

Happy Birthday to u
Happy Birthday to u
Happy Birthday to my homeland singapore....
Happy Birthday to u ................

Passed

2005-08-06T15:31:00.000+08:00

Finally for 5 months. I am going for my bike test on 29 august. I am so happy. Waited for this day since I started learning bike. I have decided to buy scrambler, a black and red in colour, after I had passed my test. Ok, my trip to Sri Lanka had changed to 4-9-05. So fast. After my one month holiday starts, people enjoying, I go Sri Lanka to help the tsunami victim. People pray for me. Hoped I will go there safely and come back safely. Eunice, don’t worry I will buy you a present. And may be celebrate for you when I come back?? Can????? People, don’t miss me k.

Hey, Singapore Birthday is coming. So today’s song is a national day song. Sorry can’t find … lol bye bye .

24 / 7 / 05 - 31 / 7 / 05

2005-07-31T20:56:00.000+08:00

i have not blog since 24 / 7 / 05. so today i am going to tell all of u what am i doing this one week. tomolo is 1 of august . last friday , i am been told that , i am selected for the sri lanka trip. i am so happy . we go there to do a project which help those ppl who got hit by the tsunami and have no money and no house to stay . the whole of august i am going to be very busy , to get ready for project.i am going of on the 11-9-2005. wow lau , so unlucky , unable to celebrate Eunice birthday . but eunice don't worr y , i will get u a present. before i leave for sri lanka.this weekend from friday till today , i went to machie to drink wine and eat . then yesterday , i went with my drinking group to sentosa and drink the "Sarong Fly" this drink is damn nice . u ppl out there have to try. it is at tanjong beach. yesterday at sentosa , it is raining heavy and there a a very strong wind . so we hide in the pub there. wow , damn cold . i am half naked. but after about 3 + , we went to Singapore Polo Club to eat . we drank red wine and champage. wow , pretty steady after drinking . this week only the weekend is great . weekdays , i am just in school , go to the gym and also go for my bike lesson.

People out there , pls pray for me , hope that i will go sri lanka safely . today's song that i am going to introduce is ......

Blink 182 - Stay Together For The Kids lyrics
Its hard to wake up, when the shades have been pulled shut
This house is haunted, its so pathetic, it makes no sense at all
I'm ripe with things to say, the words rot and fall away
What stupid poem could fix this home? I'd read it every day.

So here's your holiday,
Hope you enjoy it this time, you gave it all away
It was mine, so when your dead and gone,
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost,
It's not right.

Their anger hurts my ears, been running strong for seven years
Rather then fix the problem, they never solve them, it makes no sense at all
I see them everyday, we get along so why can't they?
If this is what he wants, and its what she wants,then whys there so much pain?

So here's your holiday,
Hope you enjoy it this time, you gave it all away.
It was mine,so when your dead and gone,
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost,
it's not right.So here's your holiday,

Hope you enjoy it this time, you gave it all away.
It was mine, so when your dead and gone,
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost,
It's not right,
It's not right,
It's not right,
It's not right.

Torn tonight

2005-07-23T12:34:00.000+08:00

Ok. i will blog now . because i will not have the chance to blog at night. why ??? becuase me going fishing with me Rp-mates and mango. we are going to torn there. fishing is bored , but when u look at the sea , ur mind goes blank , totally blank.cool.before going fishing , i will go for my Sp. it start for Self-practice. i am going Self -practice for me bike . it is because i need to get prepare for my practical 8.01 and the most importantly traffic poilce test . i am hoping next month i can get a bike . so i can ride bike to school .lol.can't wait for that day to come .

ok , the song today will be ..........

Slipknot - Wait and Bleed lyrics
I've felt the hate rise up in me...
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander out where you can't see...
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

I've felt the hate rise up in me...
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander out where you can't see...
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

Goodbye!

I wipe it off on tile, the light is brighter this time
Everything is 3D blasphemy
My eyes are red and gold, the hair is standing straight up
This is not the way I pictured me
I can't control my shakes
How the hell did I get here?
Something about this, so very wrong...
I have to laugh out loud, I wish I didn't like this
Is it a dream or a memory?

I've felt the hate rise up in me...
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander out where you can't see...
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

Get outta my head cuz I don't need this
Why I didn't I see this?
I'm a victim - Manchurian candidate
I-have-sinned-by-just
Makin' my mind up and takin' your breath away

I've felt the hate rise up in me...
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander out where you can't see...
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

Goodbye!

You haven't learned a thing
I haven't changed a thing
My flesh was in my bones
The pain was always free

I've felt the hate rise up in me...
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander out where you can't see...
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

And it waits for you!

Silent

2005-07-21T19:13:00.000+08:00

ok.got back about 6.45pm today. reached home , i just went into my room , don't care about anything. i never even call my dad or mum. how bad am i . see melvyn had change so much . my family is getting silent and people will start scolding each other. i am not speaking or voice out anything. i just shut up. I am so bad . but i love my parents. i am just not in the mood whenever i reached home . forgive me .

ok school is bored today . michelle had jsut recover from her fever. but she still look bad. ok , people out there we are just friends ok . don't think so much. but something i am still alone.alone alone alone. ok today's song will be ..... One of my favourite band........

Blink 182 - Story Of A Lonely Guy lyrics
Push it out, fake a smile
Avert disaster, just in time
I need a drink, cause in a while
Worthless answer from friends of mine
It's dumb to ask, cool to ignore
Girls posess me, but they're never mine
I made my entrance, avoided hazards
Checked my engine, I fell behind

I fell behind

She makes me feel like it's raining outside
And when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom
I get too scared to move, cause i'm a fuckin' boy

Remember when I was in the grocery store, now's my time
Lost the words, lost the nerve, lost the girl, left the line
I would wish upon a star, but that star, it doesn't shine
So read my book with a boring ending
A short story of a lonely guy

I fell behind

She makes me feel like it's raining outside
And when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom
I get too scared to move, cause i'm a fuckin' boy

She makes me feel like it's raining outside
And when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the promI
get too scared to move, cause i'm still just a stupid worthless boy

Yesterday and today .... I am not ok

2005-07-20T14:06:00.000+08:00

Ok. I want this feeling to stop now. I can stand it already. I am fucking alone. Seriously, friends are not by my side always. Find them give me stupid excuses. My family also like doesn’t know what happen. Everyday must fight with my elder sis at least once. Can’t stand her face. My mother is being so unfair an unreasonable. She always dares not to speak the truth. My dad, sometimes don’t even care. My younger sister always try to do something wrong and make me angry. The most fucking and sucking person in the house is my elder sister. She is the most selfish person that I even seen. Always being a like a small kid. Act big. Talk big. Action. She sounds me to slap her, but I did not, because I gave my mum face. SHE SUCKS. Want to know the name that I give her, and I put in my hand phone. Guess what, the name is “Bitch”. I have already no girlfriend. Every time I must try to make myself cool down, make myself happy. Why people out there aren’t care for me. I am alone. Please don’t come and tell me that, “Melvyn u is not alone”. My family is already like that, no girl friend, friends always not there for me. The Question now is <“WHAT AM I GOING TO DO NOW” > I am very sad. I even sit at a corner like a mouse crying. Don’t know what to do. I am very disappointed with the people in this world.

today in school , same thing , so bored . i am going to have a busy day today. after school going to the gym . then i have to rush Bukit Batok Driving Centre for my practical 7.01. so happy . hahaha.... going to get my lisence soon . may be next month . lol . can't wait .

today's song will be .....

My Chemica Romance - I'm Not Okay (i Promise) lyrics
Well if you wanted honesty,
That's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go,
It's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks,
The photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot
From jumping out the second floor?

[Chorus:]
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again,
You sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look,
Another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook
For the last time take a good hard look!

[Chorus:]
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book,
But the pages are all torn and frayed

I'm okay
I'M OKAY!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)

But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)I

'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)

Good Night

2005-07-19T19:58:00.000+08:00

Ok , i got nth to say today . nth special happen today . school is just like any other day . fac give us a problem , we solve it as a team . and present the solution at the end of the day . everyday , stick to my labtop . look at it . sooner or later i am going to wear a speacs . but the answer is no. i don't want to wear speacs . ok . no one say good night to me before . but i also never say good nite to everyone.

it has been so long i never say good night to everyone and someone . so the song today is

HOT HOT HEAT - Goodnight, Goodnight lyrics

It's not enough to hear me say you've won,
you only wanted me for havin' fun.
but now I think you've gone and had your way,
and left me with a pile of bills to pay.
I can't even rewind the tape machine,
to listen to your drunken reasoning.

So here it is, your final lullaby:

So goodnight, goodnight.
You're embarrassing me,
you're embarrassing you.
So goodnight, goodnight.
Walk away from the door,
walk away from my life.
So goodnight.

I've given up on social niceties,
I threw 'em out when I threw out your keys.
Along with all your records I can't stand;
you never even listened to any one of them.
You're never gonna drag me out again,
with all the people that were never ever even your friends.

So here it is, your final lullaby:
So goodnight, goodnight.
You're embarrassing me,
you're embarrassing you.
So goodnight, goodnight.
Walk away from the door,
walk away from my life.

A little bit of rain I’d say is fair,
But when it starts a thundering I'm scared.
This isn't goodnight, this is goodbye

So goodnight, goodnight.
You're embarrassing me,
you're embarrassing you.
So goodnight, goodnight.
Walk away from the door,
walk away from my life.

So goodnight, goodnight.
You're embarrassing me,
you're embarrassing you.
So goodnight, goodnight.
Walk away from the door,
walk away from my life.
so goodnight.

monday in school

2005-07-18T19:01:00.000+08:00

ok , today is monday . it is time to go school again . today's module is computering . ok today i very bored in school. the problem today is quite ok . but must think alot . i think till i go mad . but manage to solve the problem . after school , actually should go for drumming class , but my friend never call me , so i never go lor . went home with derrick , go jp buy some stuff and went home . now me at home writing my blog. sian ah . feel like swimming . later go out , meeting faez . sit down and tok shit . hahaha

ok today's song will be .........................

Fall out Boy - Sugar we're going down

Am I more than you bargained for yet?
I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear
Cause that's just who I am this week

Lie in the grass next to the mausoleum
I'm just a notch in your bedpost but you're just a line in a song
(Notch in your bedpost, but your just a line in a song)

Drop a heart and break a name
We're always sleeping in and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And sugar we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded gun complex
Cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And sugar we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded gun complexCock it and pull it

Is this more than you bargained for yet?
Oh, don't mind me. I'm watching you two from the closet
Wishing to be the friction in your jeans

Isn't it messed up how I'm just dying to be him
I'm just a notch in your bedpost but you're just a line in a song
(Notch in your bedpost, but your just a line in a song)

Drop a heart and break a name
We're always sleeping in and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And sugar we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded gun complexCock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And sugar we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded gun complexCock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And sugar we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded gun complexCock it and pull it

We’re going down, down
Take aim at myself, take back what you said

Swimming

2005-07-17T18:52:00.000+08:00

ok , today when to nikki's house for a swim. some of my drink group members where there . lol we also went to the gym there. damn small and got nth there lor . but manage to did some workout. the day is quite fun . we drank wine and eat . and tok shit there . stay there till 11 , then aunty fetch us home and sleep . if tomolo no school , we already torn there and keep drinking. lol . haha

ok , today's song is to say sorry to someone . my x stead .ok. here is the song

The Bravery - An Honest Mistake
People
They don't mean a thing to you
They move right through you
Just like your breath
But sometimes
I still think of you
And I just wanted to
Just wanted you to know
My old friend...
I swear I never meant for this
I never meant...

Don't look at me that way
It was an honest mistake
Don't look at me that way
It was an honest mistake
An honest mistake

Sometimes
I forget I'm still awake
I fuck up and say these things out loud

My old friend...
I swear I never meant for this
I never meant...

Don't look at me that way
It was an honest mistake
Don't look at me that way
It was an honest mistake
An honest mistake

Don't look at me that way
It was an honest mistake
Don't look at me that way
It was an honest mistake
An honest mistake

The Sliver Can

2005-07-16T23:56:00.001+08:00

wow . today , my band came our with our own name . we call it The sliver can . ther is a reason for this , but the name is not comfirm la . today wake up at 10 .watch tv.then meet my band memebers to one of my friends house , to create own own song. lol .the song is create . it song funny and slow. but ok la . we just knowing how to write our own song lol. quite happy .becasue finally we had created our own song .

ok so today's song that i want to intro , is of course my band own song .

The sliver can - I don't want you to fade away
Verse 1
Memories of you
Always on my mind
Even when I'm sleeping
I just couldn’t get to you

I wish that you were here
every single moment
Cos i dun wan you to fade away.....

preChorus
fade away
fade away

Chorus 1
I'm siting down here waiting
For you and thinking back
Recalling the way you are
The way that I’m treated
siting down here waitingwith you in my mind
And I don't want you to fade away....

Verse 2
After all this years
I’m still stuck With you,girl
Every single moment
When i'm with you

after all this years,
I had found someone
that i dun want you to fade away....

preChorus
fade away
fade away

chorusx1

Interlude(instrumental solo)

Chorus 2 x2

The Sliver Can

2005-07-16T23:56:00.000+08:00

Came home late

2005-07-15T22:33:00.000+08:00

i just came back from my Bike Practical 6.01. i am so happy that i have pass that stage . and now prepare to book for 7.01. so happy . today in school every boring . so little ppl came to class today . today's moledule is science . i am very tired and can't think . but during three meeting , which is presentation time , i manage to say something to show my understanding of the topic . lol . then after school , eat with my classmates and friends . after that went to gombak with Wan , and we played cs at Mac. lol. after that i am late for practical , so i took a cab there . so now i am at home after my practical . u must believe in urself then u can earn something .ok stop here

today i am going to intro to u all out there is the song ,

Good Charlotte - We believe

There's a woman crying out tonight
Her world has changed
She asks God why
Her only son has died
And now her daughter cries
She can't sleep at night

Downtown
Another day for all the suits and ties
Another war to fight
There's no regard for life
How do they sleep at night?
How can we make things right?
Just wanna make this right

We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believeIn this love

We are all the same
Human in all our ways and all our pain
(So let it be)
There's a love that could fall down like rain
(Let us see)L
et forgiveness wash away the pain
(What we need)
And no one really knows what they are searching for
(We believe)
This world is crying for so much more

We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believeIn this love

We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believeIn this love

So this world
Is too much
For you to take
Just let it down and follow me
I'll be everything you need
In every wayWe believe

We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believeIn this love
(In this love)
We believe
(In this love)
We believe
(In this love)
We believe
(In this love)

Gym Day

2005-07-14T20:42:00.000+08:00

Today went to gym with my two classmates . we went to the gym in our school. i had been so long since i do weights . i need to start to bulid up my body and stamina . did my own workout . train all parts of my body . from the shoulder to leg . now i home . very tired . but now feeling normal . nothing to me la . small case . lol. ah yo don't know wat to say already . hahaTHink about this girl i like . but i am so unlucky the girls i like all got stead la ... wow lau .. very unlucky la. i am very coward now . scared to tell the girl i like her . so useless la me . hopeless.

ok here is the song that i am going to intro today ....

Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends lyrics

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Like my fathers come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Ring out the bells again
Like we did when Spring began
Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Like my fathers come to pass
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends

13/7/05

2005-07-13T16:16:00.000+08:00

today after i went to gym with my two classmates . i went there , but i did not do any weights . i am a manager of my friend. it is because it want to represent the school muscle war. then we went home together . then i went down to BBDC . to find out y i have a PDL ,but can't book a practical. the reason is there , i did not update . stupid me . waste my time . then went home change and get out of my house and Play soccer . lol . while playing soccer , Ibarhim ask me to run for his team in a interhotel race . the race are 4 x 100m and 4 x 400m. wow lau. so stress , i have not been training for 6 months . play soocer only 2 times a month. how am i going to run 400m. ????? but then i decided to help him becuase he had no more runner ... come on . i need supporter. my only supporter i think onli my x stead .so u ppl who read this do support me k . the race in on 31/7/05. so short time to train . i am going to die this time . also msg me x stead in the hp . from bbdc, to basketball court where i play soccer ,till i sleep . lol . look time never tok to her that long. lol u out there got problem tell me . share with me . i love to help my friends byebye .

the song today will be ,

My chemical romance - Helena lyrics
Long ago
Just like the hearse you died to get in again
We are so far from you

Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you knew
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight

[Chorus:]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Came a time
When every starfall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight

[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Well, if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide

[Chorus:]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Well, if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Ok , here is the step i am going to do.

2005-07-12T17:24:00.000+08:00

ok. noe what am i going to do is go for Girl A , and let Girl B be my friend. this is what i am going to do . my mood is getting better . i laugh alot in class . to the max .today Raj ride his bike and fetch me to BBDC. do something there , then back to school . i found out something about my friends . my girls-friends are more caring then the boy-friends . but no use also . i don't have a girlfriend.

so today the song i going to intro to u all out there , is something that represent my emotions rite now . friends out there , pls talk to me . care for me. go out with me. thats all i ask for. ok here is the song.

Vermillion lyrics
She seems dressed in all the rings
Of past fatalaties
So fragile yet so devious
She continues to see
Climatic hands that press
Her temples and my chest
Enter the night that she came home
Forever

Oh (She's the only one that makes me sad)

She is everything and more
The solemn hypnotic
My dahlia, bathed in posession
She is home to me

I get nervous, perverse when I see her it's worse
But the stress is astounding I
t's now or never she's coming home
Forever

Oh (She's the only one that makes me sad)

Hard to say what caught my attention
Fixed and crazy, Aphid Attraction
Carve my name in my face, to recognize
Such a pheramone cult, to terrorize

I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me

(Yeah!)
I'm a slave, and I am a master
No restraints and, unchecked collectors
I exist throught my need, to self-oblige
She is something in me, that I despise

I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me

I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me

SHE ISN'T REAL!
I CAN'T MAKE HER REAL!
SHE ISN'T REAL!
I CAN'T MAKE HER REAL!

(She isn't real, I can't make her real)
(She isn't real, I can't make her real)

OK , here is the problem .....

2005-07-11T19:23:00.000+08:00

There is this Girl A , who i like alot . But she have a boyfriend .... so what i do is wait . waited for so long , and i being to get mood swing and sad about it . i am trying to forget about her , but can't.it is hard for me to do it . so i just wait . Soon this Girl B came out . i was like ,"oh my god" she is hot . get to know her . my heart starts to melt. i can't stop look at her . and i had comfirm that i will forget about Girl A . But the answer is NO. i still can't forget about Girl A . she suddenly came out again. i was like oh my god. what my i going to do . i like Girl B. But the problem is i am scared to love her . i am being coward this few months. i had change . But now Girl A keep wondering in my mind so as girl B . i don't know what i am going to do . if i think carefully who i like . i will say Girl A. but now i don't know what to do. so do help me.

Good news everyone . i am not going to hate u all . because there are two person who help me which i get even mpre confuse. it is because , both of them give me two different advice. i am kinda like dying . i can't sleep every night. sad.lonely.confuse.But do thanks to these two person who give me the advice . THanks you . so here is the song i am going to intro to u all out there.
i am going post a song to u all everytime i post. so do Download and heard the song . it represent my feelings.thanks you people.

The Saddest Song By The Ataris
Only two more days, until your birthday
Yesterday was mine
You'll be turning five
I know what it's like, growing up without your father in your life

So I pretend, I'm doing all I can
And I hope someday you'll find it in your heart

To understand
Why I'm not around
And forgive me for not being in your life

I remember waiting
For you to come
Remember waiting
For you to call
Remember waiting
there to find nothing at all
I remember waiting
For you to come
Remember waiting
For you to call
Waiting there to find nothing at all
maybe someday
you really get to know me
not just the letters read to you
I pray I get the chance
To make it up to you
We got a lot of catching up to do

So I pretend, I'm doing all I can
And hope someday you'll find it in your heart
To understand
Why I'm not around
And forgive me for not being in your life

I remember waiting
For you to come
Remember waiting
For you to call
Remember waiting there to find nothing at all
I remember waiting
For you to come
Remember waiting
For you to call
Waiting there to find nothing at all

Forgive me!
I'm so sorry!
I will make it up to you....

Bomb This Fucking Place

2005-07-10T19:11:00.000+08:00

i just feel like fly a jet fighter and throw a "BIG BOY " (atomic Bomb) down from the sky and kill everyone in singapore . i am very Down . all friends are useless.hopeless.i am feeling down here . anyone out there can talk to me . make my smile . HELP ME !!!!!!! i am Crying .....!!!!!!!
i am very confuse . when jamming today , though can help me relax my mind . but the answer is NO. my problem is getting very serious . i don't know what my i going to do . where is last time Melvyn.he is used to be a brave guy . go all out for everything .but now a coward . sitting at one corner and cry. no one is looking at u . ur friend also don't care about u . do u think u still have friend ??? what should i do to let people know that i am down . People in singapore had VERY VERY VERY LOW EQ . feel like shouting out aloud. i need help here . if no one going to help me . i am going to hate every one out there . Last Word i want to SHOUT " FUCK YOU ". Slipknot is the only band that let me head bang and relax.so people do help me .

7-6-05 to 9-7-05

2005-07-09T18:40:00.000+08:00

the past 30 days , what have i been doing. i had my school hoilday from 4 june till 26 june . for this whole month , i am kind like alone most of the time. i went drinking with my drinking mates.
my life is bored. but as school starts , i felt that i don't have any friends , no one hearing when i am talking . now i know only one person will listen what i say and listen to my joke.the person is __________ (tag me may be i will tell you who is he/she) For this pass 30 days i slack alot. come home late , wake up late . i am so lazy. can anyone help me with this. my mind don't fly go where. i am so confuse, so many things in my mind. i want to tell someone .i need a person who really can help me . lent me their ears. solve for me my problem. if it happens that if u ask me that u can help me , if i don't tell u which mean u are not the right person lor . i am lacking of LOVE. may be i need a girlfriend . don't know la . confuse. sad. lonely. but i am glad that i am going jamming tomolo. drumming really helps me alot. it ease off my mind. make it blank.

So people who read this , do tag me . hahahahahahahaha.sob sob sob sob . argghhhhhhh.

SO Long Already

2005-06-12T12:00:00.000+08:00

It had been so long since i undate my blog ...... haha . now i am back alone , single . after my o level and everything , holidays , working etc. now studying in republic polytechnic. Rp is not bad good school . i like the system . people who thinks that RP is unless . u are then a useless . u r a no brainer . My bro had just came out from somewhere . really miss him lots. now he is out , so happy to heard his voice and hope he will really change haha. got to stop here byebye

HOliday

2004-12-28T13:44:00.000+08:00

WOW , long holiday for me , so long never write in my blog already .... just here to say something .
My dearest,
I’ve missed you very, very much since that last night we were together. I will hold that night especially in my memories for years to come. I’ve been turning it over and over in my mind lately. I’ve read your letter through at least 4 times, and I will probably read it more times before I’m through. I’ve been sitting here…looking at your picture and getting more homesick every minute. I’ve wanted that picture more than anything else I know of; except of course…you yourself. I keep thinking of you darling; keep wishing I could be home with you. I want to leave in the worst possible way, so I could come home to see you, but…things don’t look so good in that subject. This war has spoiled a lot of things for everyone I guess. I’ve never been so lonesome in my life as I am right now. I’m completely lost without you darling. I never realized I could miss any one person so much, I just hope it won’t be too much longer till I’m able to be with you again, and live a sane and normal life.

perlims day

2004-09-24T18:00:00.000+08:00

today,
it is history paper today. fuck up man , i read the qn wrongly , don't know wat happen to me , feel like sleep that point off time , so mant thing come to mind.. haiz.... after paper , plan with jaz all , go LTF (lau ti fang) . it is at town lor . long time never go there already ... meet at 4 , go there tok cock .... haha, then zhi wei call me he is at iguana, so went there with rick , ernest and jaz... happy to go there , because go there already meets drink lor , favourite drink IGUANA COLADA.. power , love it man , also a apple flavour hard liquor... don't know call wat lor , nice man , drink till 11+ , dad fetch me home , unalbe to see elieen .. one of a gal in our drink group ... haha.. today relasea my stress alot alot, go there onli happy , haha..... bye bye

feeling ~ power
thinking ~gals

Prelim day 4

2004-09-21T14:31:00.000+08:00

today,
wow , today can a bit relax , because it is maths paper 1 . at first i am worry because , my friend rick said that our school HOD Mr lee say the paper is three times harder then o level, i am shock .... but never worry musch after looking at the paper and start doing , the ppl it not so hard , onli a few careless and 2 or 3 question , not sure how to do , but i think the paper i can pass ah...... wow feeling great after the paper , because tomolo no paper so can sleep at home . after our ppl my friends and i went to my house need by shelter to play soccer , play till 1 + then go home . go home rest another friend ask to go play again , at 6 ... wow lau ... it rains the whole after noon... the floor is slippery .... yah ... hard to do skill on the ball, titanic the show is really nice, i really love watching it , it let me remember my past ,with my stead, feel like crying ... bye bye ..

feeling ~ cry
thinking ~ x stead ..

Prelims start

2004-09-16T16:11:00.000+08:00

Today,
wow , finally man , dnt is over , today start prelim.. english paper 1 n 2 ...wow ,don't know wat to do lor .. just do wat come to my mind .. the paper is ok la , not easy nor hard lor ... hmm finish school at 12 ,then start in school till 2 + .. haha why Dnt lor , finally i have done finish .. haha.. now onli need to study for my paper tomolo chinese paper 1 and social studies .. ok la don't tok already must study , bye bye

Feeling ~ Great
Thinking ~study study study

Happy, Sad and Angry

2004-09-11T17:19:00.000+08:00

today,
well , first of all, Happy birthday 16th Eunice....today is her birthday .thinking of passing her a present that i bought her, but too busy , so i delivered it by post .... it take about 2 working days ... haha.... today went out with aunty and friends ,do wat leh, well drink lor ....went to esplanade drink , reached there about 8+... left there about 10+ then head down to iguana , meet jaz,,jason,wendyand stead , serene and stead ,and some other friends... and also rick.... haha... go there , well onli drink india pale .. a kind of beer . hmmm, quite nice.. drank it before , i think last week.. yah yah ...want to know something , LALA DRUNK,... hahaha... he funny man , keep on disturbing me , u know why , i am the one who make him drunk ..... then somemore, he was walking in the carpark and suddenly lay down on the floor .... HAHAHAHa... those guys who saw him today , must remember this day ... this is the happy part ...then sad and angry , i got nothing to say... better not think about it la ... so bye bye ....

feeling ~ angry ,sad,happy
thinking ~ $$$ and girl

Dnt day 2

2004-09-09T17:17:00.000+08:00

Today,
dnt day two ... wake up at 7:30 ... so tired , i am being waked up by my handphone ... ah yah , luckly my friend azri msg me , if not i forget to wake up and follow him to bugis .... i got up and change , and went our whenever i am ready , met him over at his house , then we took mrt to bugis... well go there do wat , weel repair my friend his thing la .. for the dnt project ... spend about 1/2 hour there , then we felt a bit hungry and went to zam zam to eat prata .. wow lau the prata then is very big .. 70 cents one , nearly can't eat finish man ... But manage to eat finish .. azri treat me eat ... then we headed back to school continue our dnt o level project ... haha... then went home at 4 ... went out again at 7:45pm .. meet azri and go study at our house near by ... study till 10+ then went home and sleep , because tomolo got got Dnt day 3 .. ah yah ....

Feeling~ tired
Thinking ~ faster finish my project

Dnt Day

2004-09-08T16:27:00.000+08:00

today,
just came back from Dnt class , wow lau , tired , and one thing so hot man today , sweat like "fork"... today wake up at 7.30am, bath , then change , drink some milo then went our meet my friends to blk 679 there eat breakfast ..... eat till 9 + then go to school for dnt ... reach there , do till 12+ then went home to eat lunch then continue my day at jp ..... went there buy something for my project then go school ..... went back to school at about 1+.... do till now just came back tired ... need to relex ...tomolo need to do again , same time , because next week must pass up foilo and everything already , scared man , cannot do finish ... but i can, i am on my way to get A1 for dnt ... haha..

feeling ~ tired after Dnt class
Thinking ~ of a gal ...

Drink, Drank , a bit drunk

2004-09-03T19:12:00.000+08:00

today,
well as usual today go to iguana..... finish school today at 5pm .. tiring man .... then go home .. we suppose to meet at 6:30pm , but jaz called me at 5:30pm,"melvyn we coming to ur house ", i at there "HUH!" oh ok .. then quickly go bath lor . reached iguana then no place to sit , then aunty say go berwarck, < --- don't know correct spelling or not .. go there eat , drink beer , sob sob , no vokda or anything ... just beer , but never over there got different beer , quiet nice la .... eat , drink , tok shit , then left there at about 11+... haha, then head home .... this may be the last time brfore my exams starts lor... sob , so sad .... nvm after 'o'level everyday also can ... hahaha bye

feeling ~ a bit disappoint
thinking ~ drinking water

Be urself day ...

2004-08-31T11:52:00.000+08:00

today,
it is "Be urself day" .... it is also teacher's day celebration .... well , don't know wat to wear , actually want to wear from top to bottom nike , but cb the shoe not nike , onli shirt, pants and socks ... nvm this means that i need to buy a nike running shoe , hahaha... go to school as usual..... the go hall do stupid work out for don't now wat day . then sat in the hall to watch the concert ..... boring la , and sucks ... there is a band sang The Reason by Hoobastank.... but really sucks , even my band can do better then them , one word to the concert "BORING" ah yah , then meet my old friends nazume they all , in the canteen , chic chat , eat , then go jp, saw some friends there , like walk everywher got friend like that , well great day ... so bye bye

feeling ~ ?????
think ~ !!!!!!

speech day cum e-fair

2004-08-28T19:59:00.000+08:00

today ,
Stupid man ... must wake up early .... for wat , for fuck huh... no is for the fucking speech day , waste time onli ... sit in the hall like stupid waiting for my turn to go up to the stage to take my prize , yah . then speech day over , we must witness the opening of my school e-fair , yah the went home change then come back , for wat , oh to see gigs in my school , the performents are quite good , ok la , i stay in school till 4 , the go home sleep , power man , sleep then must wake up at 6:30pm go to chinatown for my dad's company 7 month dinner.. reached there sit there for a while feeling sad , when i suppose to bring my stead to this dinner , but i fail , why , no stead la , ah yah ,left after the third dish is served , i left ,. u know why, go iguana, total ten ppl there , sit there till 12+ when suddenly i am the onli person a wake ..... hahaha.... i good ah , not easy to get drunk .... haha, after that go lau pa sa eat , eat till 2 then go home , home sweet home , reached home at 2:45am.... not so tired .. then get change and sleep ...haha

feeling ~ sunday rest don't go iguana
thinking ~ money !!!!!

ok ok ok la

2004-08-27T19:46:00.000+08:00

today,
every friday , i will be quite happy because , every friday is drinking day , every friday will follow aunty and friends to iguana cafe , tok tok , chit chat and of cause drinking . brought two new come there mt classmates calvin and hock yan ... haha, go there , tell u something , hock yan so far drop on the table already , haha , u know why , he first time la drink ... many ppl go , ppl like puvan , jaz,rick,han wei , wendy , wendy's stead and friend, aunty.etc, have fun playing game when i started to force ppl to drink , haha as i am the 2nd best there who is a good at drinking ... first of cause is aunty .... oh one more person richman , we reach there , saw him putting his head on the table , u know why , before coming , he went with his friend drinking .... ah yo , i make every one die , the went home with calvin,puvan and rick , share cab home , then saw road block , police ask stupid questions , open the cab door and sad , where are u all going , the we reply , go home la .... the he keep quiet and let us go . reached home early...... because tomolo got speech day cum e-fair ... stupid ...... must wake up early , bye nite nite

feeling ~like sleeping
thinking ~ wether eunice will come for tomolo e -fair

26th august 2004

2004-08-26T17:51:00.000+08:00

today ,
now i home writing my blogspot .. don't know wat to write , wanting to update the last few days , but can't forget already la , don't know now a days wat i am thinking man ... ok ... today in school , very angry when doing my dnt product ... my circuit is spoilt again , fuck man , must go down bugis sinta repair again , hat doing this , if not today i finish doing my product already , stupid man , SHIT ..... ah yah .... nvm today came home at 4 , have school till four stupid english teacher make us stay back just to do comprehension ....... then do lor . i am tired , all day ,thinking of different things every minutes ... but still can't stop thinking of eunice ... i feel that we are even not friend man , don't know why she like don't want to tok to me like that ... i feeling very sad lor , nvm , MELVYN CHEER UP .... hehehhe .tomolo still go chem and social stuides CAs , bye , off to study

feeling ~sad , angry
thing ~of something

hmmm... i am ok.

2004-08-21T11:28:00.000+08:00

today,
f**K, i was supposed to go to school in the morning to report for speech day rehersal, do u know rehersal for wat , how to receive a prize, hahaha..... i am the top scholar for dnt in the n level , i got A1 .. haha... but stupid , why must rehersal so many time .... but me never go la , me overslept .. haha, so stay at home sleep longer, wait for 1 pm still need to go school . then stay at home watch tv lor ..
then at 1pm went to school for this tuition , where by a group of MI student come to teach us wat we don't know , u know wat , the tuition should start at 1 , but guess wat time they come , 2:30 pm , wau lau , the tuition suppose to finish at three , in the end i went at 3:30pm, don'r care just go onli . go home rest lor then ask rick to come out study ,in the end , study at his house ... WASTED singpore lee jia wei never go final.. feeling so sad for her . but never mind , she will get a bronze medal .... hmmm , then at about 8 + aunty come along and we go to arena watch soccer , well the match yesterday nice and got , the place provide big screen to watch the match . ppl who went there , me , puvan , elleen ,aunty and rick .. haha... enjoying ourselve ... byebye .

feeling~ have a big screen in my room
thinking ~ eunice

hard day in school,unluck day

2004-08-20T11:17:00.000+08:00

today,
wow lau .. today start in school till 5 + man ... study study study .... morning go school lesson as usual, study lor , then after school stay in school till 2:30pm... this is the one that make me head pain ....three hours do maths , wow lau bored man ... fucking bored , hope to just half way of the class run away ... ah yah nvm , still have too , then finally the time had come , can go home already .
went home change when jaz told me that we are meeting at 5:30pm ... fuck , i rush like hell quickly bath eat , call rick to come my house , wait for them .... but waited and waited the come my house at 6:30 , ah yah nvm la .... then as i was waiting for jaz thay all , got a phone call from my friend, taufiq , told me the eunice is in jp world of sport , wtf , me so unlucky , if i know , i should meet jaz they all at jp, wow lau so unlucky now a days... then go out to iguana ,sit down tok cock , them go house about 11:30pm. sob sob

feeling ~ to look at eunice
thinking~ tok to eunice

match between 5n vs 4nt

2004-08-18T11:29:00.000+08:00

today,
i have waiting for this day since last week, because my friend from 4nt keep telling me that the could win my team ,which is the 5n ...so this day had came ,when suddenly i have alot of player ... two new chinese guys who first time play for my team ... they are my long time classmates during since 2 , well i let them play to test their skill, both of them played well with the power in them... the game goes well as the match starts ..... well, about 20min during the first half of the game , i shot 30m away from the goal post into the top corner of the goal post ... the 4nt goalkeeper , was shocked at that point of time .... i shut their mouth during the first half .... then the first half ended ... we took a rest for 40 min .. because it is the sec 1 vs sec2 turns to play their second half ... well i look at the game , they paly like same kids .. but some of them are quite good ... after the match between sec 1 and 2 ... if i am not wrong the sec 1 won .... hahaha..... funny rite ... then our match started . i changed some of my friends position because ame of my teammates went home already ....... the game goes well ,when i play nicely the ball for my teammate faez to shot , and there it goes , into the net , GOAL > 2-0.... happy went suddenly , the 4nt hit us back with a goal to make it 2-1.... then the game goes on, with subs .... the i got quite angry about the game because of the ref , fuck man , as i was running , i was clearly pushed but a guy of the 4nt team.... very angry ..... and also one more thing , we are awarded with a penalty , FUCK MAN , I MISS IT , very sad , but my teammatestold me don't worry , we will score agian . but it is true , when umar our team striker , whack in a goal to make it 3-1 .. .i am happy .... towards the end of the game , i strike in another goal , to make it 4-1 , i am happy with the results as i hear the whistle goes .. the game ended...

feeling~score more goals
thinking ~be one of the best striker in the world

nothing but jamming ..

2004-08-15T18:48:00.000+08:00

today,
well wake up as late as i can.... thinking about the band yesterday .... but one thing , i forgotten to go to a soccer match .. but nvm .. who care.!!! woke up at 11AM wen han called me the there is a jamming today at 2 ... so i bath and eat , do wat ever i want the meet him at 2 ...

jamming starts at 2 to 4 ... happy a great time playing as a drum , play old and new songs... after jamming when to IMM which my other band mates nazume and syahir.. at there , there is this sportlink sales .. but it told us an hours to find where is it eventhough before we came we know where is it .... nvm finally found , but there is nothing nice selling there , waste my time onli, so we went to gaint to buy some food to eat ... ate for a while , and my mum called me , "melvyn come out now , we going loyang to pray", oh ok so i have to say good bye to my friends and off to loyang to pray ... after preying reached home at 9.00pm because of arsenal match ... haha nice match with a score of 4 -1 arsenal won ... the at 11 pm it is the big match chelsea us man utd ... the finally score is 1-0 chelsea won... a bit upset , but nvm .... NICE TRY MAN UTD ..

feeling ~ play for man utd
thinking ~be a player in man utd

tried but happy in the end

2004-08-14T18:28:00.001+08:00

today,
well wake p at 7:45am , for school speech day rehersal .... feeling very tired man because i came back from clark quey at 12+ yesterday and drank some , that is why felt not abit but very tired ... no other ways but to go to school .... for speech day and ncc .

where to school eat which my friends breakfast then go to the school hall for the rehersal... i am the prize winner btw .... getting top for DNT during the 'n'level .. me got A1... haha... then finish at 11am.... feeling stupid when going up the stage and learning "how to receive prize , stupid rite ... but nvm ... after that went for ncc .... last day already .. my CO , which is my teacher who is incharge of ncc give us a treat for out hard work .... btw i am the RSM of boon lay school ncc unit ... my teacher treat us pizza .. haha yummy yummy ... feeling abit sad because leaving ncc and the USM left behind a hopeless unit .... then go home ..

reached home change then faster down for tuition ..very tired , when my teacher teaches me , i fall a sleep .... but at four tuition ... then when to my sis friend house take a couple of HOOBASTANK ticket for $40 very happy because i am going to HOOBASTANK CONCERT .. yah.......... after taking my dad fetch me to bugis to me dnt stuff and went home to change ..
and go to hoobastank concert ...

reached that at about 7.25pm... i went there which my band mate wen han .... when we reached there , there were no much ppl .. but as the goes pll keep coming in .... i am at the $59 row.. which is rite at the back.. met some friends there ... stay there till 8:30 when the band HOOBASTANK came out ... ppl started shouting ... their songs were all nice ... very one is head banging .. jumping ...singing ... POWER man ....cool .. after a few songs ..the $59 row was ask by the singer doug roob , who is the vocal of hoobasktank to go forward to the $79 row ... soon many ppl did ... some ppl get caught but then most ran to the $79 row .... ppl climbing over fence , side gate open many ppl run by there .... cool man .... very happy on that day.. it is the happiest day of my life .... but may be this is in the top ten of my happiest life ..

feeling ~go to more rock band concert
thinking ~have a rock band

the friday 13th

2004-08-13T11:43:00.000+08:00

today ,
actually have school till 4:30 , but teacher sick .. then go home ... have school till 3:30 .... haha ... so happy , and my friends and i went do to our school field for the 5n vs 4n match , which starts at 4:30 .. my team reach about 4:40... but one thing make me angry when the 4n came at 5 ... and starts the match at above 5.30 .. stupid man ... make me wait still want to tok so much .... fucking action them ..... i don't like them much even since they came into the school .... nvm , the match starts ... and game is quite good when the 5n which is i am playing for leading 1-0 in the first half .. and in the first half i got a very hard slide one my calf.. when i can't really stand up, but then a while i am ok ..... so the second half starts when don't know wat happen , the 4n hit in a goal... when the score is 1 all .... but then my teammate scored a beautiful goal when he told a shot outside the penalty box , and the ball go to the top corner , and the goes ,2-1 to 5n.... but mistake happening when the 4n once again scored their second goal ..... FUCK MAN .... the game end with a 2-2 draw, when i quickly run home to meet my friends and go out ... haha came home at about 12+ , because next day got school ... haha

feeling ~ scoring goals
thinking~play with them again

soccer day

2004-08-11T21:24:00.000+08:00

today,
after school have a soccer match in school . the secondary 5 boys vs the secondary 2 boys ... i of course play the secondary five team ... hmmmm .... today my team actucally should play with the secondary four normal , but most of them can't play so the match is cancelled ... so my team , the team sec 5 , play with the sec two boys in our school ..... the match started at 4:30 .... kick at about 4:45 .. warmed up and started playing ...
the game goes well when i scored two goals and my right winger, azri scored one go after i miss is tab in ball cross from the left and he manage to get the miss ball and tab it in .... the should scored a hat-trick in the first half , but after i scored , it is a hand ball by one of the sec two boys ... my center midfielder ,mamat take the penalty and miss , but we never blame him ... the othe striker umar who play with my up front as forwards , miss lots of chances and the first half end with a 3-0 lead by my team sec 5 .... second , who abit great goals keep going into the net , everyone from my team wanted to score .. so i set back as a center denfender and let everyone get up and score ... the game goes will and the game end with a 11-0 .... the team sec 5 won the game .... it is like a warm up for us to vs the sec 4 normal .... and were happy that coming friday we vs them ... haha.... wish my team luck ....

feeling ~ continue scoring more goals
thinking~ beating the 4 normal

study day

2004-08-10T22:47:00.000+08:00

today ,
wake up , wash up , watch tv .... at about 1.30pm , got a call from richman.... ask me go drink, i rejected ... why , simple don't want to die early ...... hmmm ... then call jaz , meet her after her tuition at 4 , then go imm bk study along with jaz and rick ..... study till 6+ then went home because jaz need to go home early .. don't know why ... because of her mother lor , want her to go home early .... then go hurong point buy something , guess wat , a glass chess set .. that is one thing i collecting .... buy already place it at home .... at 7:30pm meet my friends at a need by court and play takwra .... quite fun , when the net keep dropping ..... string too short la .... haha... then went home sleep ....

feeling ~ study study study
thinking ~ go poly

9/8/04,national day

2004-08-09T22:38:00.000+08:00

National day,
first thing first , happy birthday singapore ... living in singapore for 17 years since i was born... nice and peaceful country .... haha.... the NDP 2004 , i never watch , not even on tv ... me went out of my house at about 3 , went with aunty and friends down to singapore polo club . first time there ... peaceful day , drank some beer and popper .. quite nice , not to drink too much , because at nite about 7pm we went do to iguana cafe , as usual . DRINK DRANK never drunk... it is at clark quey .. at there saw some fire works , abitbit onli... ah yah nvm... every year the same , see the fireworks alone ..... then continue drinking in iguana to 12+am ... left to take supper at jurong east .. because some were hungry ... so eat and drink beer , till about 1+am then home sweet home ... haha .... sorry singapore for not celebrating ur birthday for u ...

feeling ~ watch the fireworks again
thinking ~going with a gal to see it

from 6/8/04 till today

2004-08-09T14:18:00.000+08:00

6/8/04,friday
today is our school national celebration , put on my class t-shirt , with a bottle of vodka on the shirt , quiet nice , the celebration is so boring , ppl shouting , standing , doing all stupid stuff... whereas me and my friends , sitting at the back of the hall, throwing paper , bottle at the ppl in front of us ..... ah yah , just one word "BORING" school finish school at 10.. me went home and and take a nap because have a match at 5 .... met my friends at 3:30 , and go for the match , the match ok la , when i realise my oppoent is much bigger the me , gangster somemore , but there is no need to fear , we just play , after the whole match , i am happy because , it is time to go clark quey with my friend puvan to meet the others at there .... reach there at about 8.20pm .... eat , drink ,drank , drunk, hahaha ... power , but over there a bit boring because got some boring ppl there ... reaches home at 2am ... bath , then sleep ... haha this is my day...
7/8/04 saturday,
today wake up at 10 +... watch cartoons ..... boring , don't know do wat , call my friend out to study at imm bk .. study till 5 + because my friends jaz so called "wife" go tuition .... then go home at around 6+++... then get a call from my friend ... ask me to go arena country

from 6/8/04 till today

2004-08-09T13:54:00.001+08:00

from 6/8/04 till today

2004-08-09T13:54:00.000+08:00

hmmm... a day in town

2004-08-01T20:48:00.000+08:00

Today,
wake up at 8.30am , waked up by my hp alarm ..... because me going istana open house .... go there to see my school band , playing for 1 hour.... reached there about 10:30am... till 12+.. saw the istana building , WOW , just like my house ... well i just day dreaming ......so went to Plaze Singapura, eat with my friends , sit down toking till 2+, then left them to meet my friend rick at PS mac, sit down tok rot.... waiting for my another friend jaz and her stead , tze wei .. called them , they say watching movie , so i waited for them till 6:30 at PS , then go home , don't know wat happen to them la . the time between 2 + to 6:30pm .... rick and i went in the yamaha shop at PS ... this man played this eletric drum , impress me so much , hoping someone nice will buy me one , then look at some dum sticks , saw this white in colour drum stick , with "Travis Barker"name on it ... me want to buy but no money ..... too bad .... after that went to star factory play game , saw my group of friends there, they are from tuition ... tok to them then they go home .... waited till 6:30 then go home ......now at home writing my blogspot .. haha bye bye

thinking ~buying the electric Drum and Drum stick
feeling ~ playing the electric Drum

as usual .....

2004-07-30T14:47:00.000+08:00

today,
hmmm..... go to school as usual .... meet my friends in school , tok to them .... having fun .... go class study , boring man today in class , study study , then after 6 period , recess..... after recess english , two period , then after that , finish school ....... actually i have to go to a class which is not compulsory , and i went to play soccer in school ... and play till 2.15pm then i am here in my school computer lab .... my classmate having f&n .. but me being extra in here , i am a DnT student ... haha ... going home soon , meet my friends at 4 at 174 ... haha BYE BYE

thinking~girl
feeling~play pool

long time no see ...

2004-07-28T22:14:00.000+08:00

today ,
wake up .. .oh it is wed... it is some of the national track at national stadium .... yah ... went to school met my friend under my blk and went to school together ... reached school boring day man .... whole day like onli di english , mainly filing ..... then chinese test .... ok la the test .... then chem ... did some worksheet and play around with my friends .... then math, go over this MSG payer labar <---- wrong speling i guess... then the bell ring ... then go home .... met chin keng at dover at 2.45pm and 3 at kallang for ibarhim .... we are going to watch the national track finals went there so many ppl ... watch eunice ran her race.... well just have to say .... it is the same thing happen as last year in her 800m final .... she maybe injured , me don't know ...... then watch other race ... wasted never go in the 4*100m final... my school in the 9 places .... WASTED .... then walk around the stadium so many ppl man ... then left around 6 + , go zam zam with ibrahim , had our dinner and tok about our dream gal .... the went to bugis walked around , and enter adidas shop, wow there is my favourite adidas red colour sweater and hope to have it , cost $139 .. haha next time then buy if i have money ... the go to starbunks have a drink then went home ....
last few days ,
on fridays went our with my friends and mother to clark quey to eat and of course drink something ... nice man power .... i love it .... feeling great after a few , but not drank ..... then sat same thing went to arena country club play pool . on sunday went to gym in the morning and went jamming with my BAND at 2 ... left at 4 + then went to west coast play pool . went home at 6+....

thinking ~ eunice
feeling ~ to tok to her face to face

just another day ...

2004-07-23T17:06:00.000+08:00

today,
wake up as usual , then go school ... tok to my friends in school ... first period is maths , not quite happy about my maths results , 44.2/50 ,look at the paper .. wow lau , some stupid careless mistakes .. a bit unhappy .... because everytime careless mistakes... stupid habit.. then nxt period chem test ... quite ok la ... classmates keep asking me how to do ... haha .... that is even one pass me a piece of paper to write the answer ... haha , so stupid . then after that till end of the school .... all boring ... after soccer went to play soccer at netball court , because have a class at 2.30pm .... play till 2.00pm then rest for half an hour , i am like sweating like hell , so hot man the day ..... then 2.30pm starts the lesson and finish at 4.30pm ... then now here i am writing this .... after meet my friends at je last cabin ... go out have a drink ..... so bye take care

thinking ~a Girl
feeling ~ like drinking

SAD DAY ...

2004-07-21T21:38:00.000+08:00

today,
wake up at 6 am.... wow so early .... of course must wake up early because i have mine 4*100m semis ... haha .. feeling so great about it and of course nervous ..... bath , change and get out of the house ... when to meet my team at boon lay interchange and make our way to cck stadium .... it is about 7.20am when we reached there .... yesterday called my first runner dinesh , he say he will be at the stadium by 7:30am.... but then we waited and waited till 8 .. there is still no sign of him .... so the other three runners which include me decided to warm up first .... time goes by it is going to 8.30am ... finally he came , thanks god ....he did not warm up ... just do some stretching and some pratice for the race ... after 15mins .. is reporting time ... we waited in the reporting room ... as the c boys 4*100m semis goes on .... i not nervous at all ... don't why , may be use to it , because every year my team when to the semis .... soon get on the track and get the job done ...... my team finish 4th in the semis heat 2 with a timing of 47.21s.... well we did better then our heats ... he cross our fingers hope to go to the finals ... but we did not go to the finals .... but one thing stupid is that we are in top 9 , i am thinking if one of the eight during the semis DSQ we will be in ... but then .. it is a NO ... i have no feeling but a bit sad about it ... we never train also can get top 9 ... not bad .. i use to it already la ... after that left the stadium and when to eat luch at jp with my teachers and track mates... went back to school at about 12.15 to watch the racial harmony concert .... quite nice.... and the concert got english test ....starts at 2.30pm , ends at 4 pm... when home rest , play computer , and where back school at nitez for nite self-study ........ ah yah and now just came back from school .... bye

Thinking ~ wat to do tomolo
Feeling ~ like going to the past

Boring day ....

2004-07-19T18:13:00.000+08:00

Today,
once i waked up , whole body feeling weak , i think i am sick .... too bad still have to go school ....reached school as usual... first period was D 'N' T , went into the workshop and start doing my project.... talk with my friend jaz about somthing .... have fun in the workshop, after three period , went back to class , it is english period ... boring man ..... set on my chair and read some newpaper which the school gave us ...... the bell rang , and next period is PE ... i love this period , but stupid mdm lee our phy teacher gave us phy ca4 ... i was over there , CHICKEN... i never study for my phy .. die die ... set there do what even i can .... and then SLEEP ... after recess, phy period , i was thinking why mdm lee did not use this period to conduct the test ... Watever la .... during phy , do nothing , playing a fool , throwing things everywhere , disturbing my classmate beating them , and trick them .. haha having lots of fun in class ,toking the whole day ... after three periods is gone , it is Assembly .... it is our youth day celebratiton ... three band and three sole is sing on the stage .. i am like , standing up claping shouting , cheering and i am thinking " I AM CARZY " but well , i am not the onli one who did that , but i am the first to do that ... after that when home about 2:30pm , and i realise ... fuck man , i have a 200m race at 4 but i still at home .... stupid i forget i have a race ... but i don't care ... i feeling weak went i reached home , so i went to my rome , and slept ..... after i waked up it is already 4pm .... it is the start of the 200m race ... i did not run the 200m race .... hiaz .... don't wat i want now ... wedesday is 4*100m semi-final... and i am looking forward to the final .. haha..

thinking ~ 4*100 m medal
feeling ~going to the final

hmmm....Well Planned Day

2004-07-18T21:58:00.000+08:00

Today,
wakes up at 8am... don't know why waked up so early . may be never slept well ... waked up , clean up myself and watch tv ... boring , early morning nothing to do . After that my mum called me , to get ready to go out to eat breakfast. Went out at 10.30am , and went to a place , don't know at what road , and ate our breakfast ..... wat a nice breakfast i have... after that , my family and i went to one loyang temple to pray ... because i just finish my 'o' level oral ..... after praying ... my dad fetched me to jurong east to meet my BAND friends for jamming ... haha ... feeling very happy when i entered into the jamming room ... Because that is the place i always throw the bad feeling and unhappiness..... finish about 3 + and met a few friends at town .... we set at our ''LAU TI FANG'' at about half and hour and when to eat bk ... my friends have fun talking about games and thing , but i set there , eat my food and keep quiet .. i also don't know wat my i thinking .... after that when to play pool at lucky plaze at around 6 .... quiet fun because i won everyone there ..HAHA ... after playing we went home ..

Thinking ~ how i wish not to go home
Feeling ~ sit at a place and drink with my friends

yoz...

2004-07-17T22:05:00.000+08:00

Hey , this is my blog . stupid rite for doing this . i don't even know wat is this , or how to do this . my sis help me to do everything . thanks for her help . i do tis blog to say everything that is in my heart .

today,
well , my mum called me up at 8.30am because i ask her so , so i wakes up and sleep back . i am feeling very tired lor . yesterday got race , 4*100m , the race i love most , and this year , my team where into the semi-finals once again .... so happy . I am also happy for a girl, eunice . congrat her for going to the final for 800m and 400m semi-finals ... feeling happy for her because she had trained every hard . i hope this year she will win something .
Me , wakes up at 8.45am , bath , change and go to school . Came back at 1045hrs and relex..do nothing at home . at 1pm , go tuition . SO BORING <<<< finished at 3 , and meet my friends Puvan,Firdaus and Aizat at clementi interchange . we went to the Gym . having lots of fun , lifting the weights and everything . each of us keep telling stupid jokes and we just kept laughing . STupid me , next week race , today do gym carry weights . haiz.. nothing to say about me . There is no one telling me wat to do ... after the Gym thing .. at about 1730hrs we left the place.. Plan to go pool after that ... but fail to do so....So we went to west coast to have my dinner with my three friend .....then we take bus 30 home ..... i am happy being with them , but always thing of someone .........

Thinking every second ~Eunice
Feeling like ~ show all my love to her ..